[cab veteran]

but I still am having obsesive thoughts on death suicide and negative things towards myself that scare me but they arnt so racing, I would never do them though.I started having these thoughts after going under for surgary. I'm able to sleep and feel more focused now which when I first started taking it I felt the oposite. It's hard to say. Is it normal for me to feel like this or is it just my bipolar. I'm only on a 25 mg dose still but I am known to be hyper sensitive to medications.
The thoughts are intrusive they pop in my head and I cant controll them. I will just be watching tv and the word death pops in my head. I'ts creapy.
I'm not hearing voices or anything it's just uncontrolable thoughts.
So my question is .. is it the med or just me? Or am I over thinking...
I noticed these thoughts come towards the end of every day or when Im tired.
My mother thinks I have been acting more snappy though.