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I am a cancer patient and have had chemo.
And yeah, chemo sucks, really really really really bad. But I am still alive and in remission.
And yes, its true, we cannot detect a single cancer cell. That is part of the problem in curing cancer. We cant say for sure if you are cured or not. Thats why we say, in remission.
Yes, cancer is expensive. Do you know why its expensive? You said 6000 for one shot? Do you know how much it cost to make that shot even available to you at any cost? It went through years, like 10-20 years, of testing and trials costing probably billions of dollars before it was made avaialbe to you. 6000 is fairly cheep in comparison to that. To put it on a level you understand, that would be kinda like getting your home for 10 bucks. Buying a brand new car for a dollar.
And yes, we are guinea pigs. I actually signed up to be a guinea pig. All of my treatment protocols have been clinical trials. I figure, if I make it, it can help someone else receive a treatment that may help them better. And if I dont, then I help the doctors and fda realize that the protocol isnt all that great. I am helping the people of the future. And it will be that way for every cancer patient until the problems such as being able to detect the single cancer cell or understanding exactly how it is cancer happens.
And yes, its true, many people die sooner because of the chemo. But note the word 'sooner'. Without treatment, you are guarunteed to die. Now many people do choose quality over quanity and refuse treatment. That is an choice every person can make. However, the person is still going to die, and the end is still going to be just as debilitating and horrifying.
Yes, it is very very easy to be bitter about. I am dealing with a lot of personal bitterness myself over it right now. And its HARD. Very hard. I would almost consider your dad lucky. He isnt suffering anymore. I am only 24, and short of a lot of things changing.... I will live, but I am stuck sitting on my couch not really able to go out and do things. I cant work. i am in the hospital every time I turn around. And I am broke, so its not like I can go do the things people do when they have no responsibilities. I dont have the money to live at the beach or go on a cross country drive or go to vegas or any of that crap. I am stuck on my couch with this computer that was given to me as a gift. And all things being the same, this is the rest of my life. No finishing school, no job, no kids... just boredom day after day after day on this couch. Would you rather that for your dad? I wouldnt. I mean, yeah, great, Im alive. But for what? Is it really better?
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