''The hardest part is knowing that we can make contact with our connect and have relief in one delivery''
@Diamond22, that's so true. I once managed to delete all the substances related phone numbers from my mobile, asked the forum I was a veteran of to close my account and deleted all the e-mail sources and OP addys. The day after I hated myself for what I had done especially for the phone numbers (way faster relief than waiting for the mailman everyday in hope that he carries your goods with the same attitude you'd wait for 'da man'
Eventually I was glad I did it and also surprised at having been able to do it. It only takes one second but is one second which contains years. A good forum friend years ago explained how he used his one second when he was far from home with no meds and no hookups.
He swallowed a naloxone tablet -no way back. He said that if it had to wd time, so be it
right now. That takes balls and comes from utter desperation, I don't remember how the story went nor I am a sponsor of self induced precipitated wd. Just to mentione what people will do when they're tired, so tired of that life, all that waiting, all those lies, constantly acting according to the dope watch