opiate addiction

[Perromaldido]

''The hardest part is knowing that we can make contact with our connect and have relief in one delivery''

@Diamond22, that's so true. I once managed to delete all the substances related phone numbers from my mobile, asked the forum I was a veteran of to close my account and deleted all the e-mail sources and OP addys. The day after I hated myself for what I had done especially for the phone numbers (way faster relief than waiting for the mailman everyday in hope that he carries your goods with the same attitude you'd wait for 'da man'
Eventually I was glad I did it and also surprised at having been able to do it. It only takes one second but is one second which contains years. A good forum friend years ago explained how he used his one second when he was far from home with no meds and no hookups.
He swallowed a naloxone tablet -no way back. He said that if it had to wd time, so be it
right now. That takes balls and comes from utter desperation, I don't remember how the story went nor I am a sponsor of self induced precipitated wd. Just to mentione what people will do when they're tired, so tired of that life, all that waiting, all those lies, constantly acting according to the dope watch

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[Coheed]

I did the same @Diamond22 u deleted all my numbers but I had a guy that used to send out mass texts to everyone on his list when he got new stuff. That was the hardest one but finally I told him take me the hell off the list and he did and I never heard from him again. I used to deal with "friends " and I use the term very loosely so it was hard but I don't associate with anyone anymore.

Yes it can be very lonely at times not having friends but I realized those people weren't my friends anyway, do you think even one person contacted me while I was in treatment facility or after to see how I was? You all know the answer hell no! Its kinda like getting locked up in that way, everyone forgets about you.

[Perromaldido]

I understand why you wrote ''friends'' between commas. In the game you're damned lucky if you have one out all people you thought of as friends. Another thoughts inspiring fact that sooner or later everybody who push it far will learn.

Perromaldido

[Coheed]

Yup nobody in the game is your friend, and nobody gives two shits about you whether it be a guy sitting behind a computer in Mexico or the guy you invite to your house on a daily basis. Its all about money and contacts and what you can do for them and vice versa.

Everybody is in it for themselves including myself when I was living that lifestyle, I knew many people but I just knew them because they served a purpose somehow. Either they had product or money or knew others or gave rides whatever. The more people you know and the more your face is seen around the more people get comfortable with you and that's how I was never without a connection. I'm sure most others on Herr have the same experiences

The main thing to remember is those people wont be around when you need them or if you overdose on their kitchen floor. Ain't nobody gonna call the paramedics for your ass!

[Perromaldido]

''people wont be around when you need them or if you overdose on their kitchen floor. Ain't nobody gonna call the paramedics for your ass!''

That's the most filthy and criminal thing a ''man'' can do. I know it's prohibitionism which triggers that behaviour, that's not an excuse are there are no excuses. Calling an ambulance, give them an address and demand that Narcan be carried along is something even the dirtiest junky can do. And stay around until you hear them coming, then slipaway because we know the pigs might even incriminate you. An all life Friend of mine ODed and died some 10 years ago, the cops found in the garage obvious evidence that two people had been there. He was not alone. But after 2/3 days asking around they concluded they didn't give a flying ****. Me and another friend conducted a private investigation, we came up with a few names but no conclusions could be drawn. So RIP Carlo. I wondered what had happened if me and my friend had come to an undisputable conclusion. I still shiver when I think of that.

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[Lazyboy]

@sambob I too wish you only the best and will be sending good thoughts your way. Try to be strong and draw strength from whatever Higher Power that works for you. I believe we all have some sort of energy that is "higher" then our own that we can draw from at times like these. At least it works for me (now one of my three kids would argue this as he is all about science). Anyway, keep us posted and we are here for you as you take this important journey to better your life. Good Luck!

[Cranberry]

[QUOTE=Perromaldido;249124]''The hardest part is knowing that we can make contact with our connect and have relief in one delivery''

@Diamond22, that's so true. Just to mentione what people will do when they're tired, so tired of that life, all that waiting, all those lies, constantly acting according to the dope watch

@Perromaldido Yeah I agree with you it really becomes tiring. It also becomes a full time job just to stay medicated. Then suddenly at some point it just takes over wrecking all that's good in your life and destroying relationships. There's nothing like the truth to get you clean, when you have got nothing left to lose. To those that never face this they'll never know what it's like to go through it. But to have people in your corner surrounding you with love after you've been clean, there's nothing more amazing.

[Perromaldido]

@Diamond22 Hey bro some people may think we talk like we survived a tsunami, yet we probably did 'Nuff respect.

Perromaldido

[Cranberry]

@Diamond22 Hey bro some people may think we talk like we survived a tsunami, yet we probably did 'Nuff respect.

Perromaldido

Haha,I know seems that way, sorry to be so dark opiate addiction can be a nightmare. I'm starting to feel like a shill for recovery.

[naughtysmurf]

@Diamond22

Hey bro! Uh..bra? Biatch?

[Perromaldido]

Bra, I'll be your sister

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[OX-gal]

I had to quit my pills cold turkey (opiates) as the cops showed up at my door with my package that UPS called in as suspicious! I was waiting on the delivery man so imagine my shock when I opened the door to two narc cops! I had ordered from a mexican pharma but the package was mailed from san diego. I had recd 4 other packages well wrapped before that horrible day. The cops interviewed me for a minute, read me my rights, and more or less told me they were gonna investigate and be back..that was a week ago and I am scared everytime there is a knock on the door. I also hate UPS for playing COP. Why dont people just mind their own business! I wasnt hanging on some street corner trying to buy it and I wasnt hurting anyone but myself. UPS sucks. Heads up anyone using that for their mail Im in Florida where you would think the cops would have bigger and better people to bust. This place used to be full of pill mills afterall. Im venting so excuse my rant but im still hurting. Boo Hoo

[Agls]

Withdrawal can be very very tough I did several cold turkey and it was tough, opiates are funny once you get a tolerance for one nothing I found can help get you off them thats of a lesser strength that may just be the pschy part of the addiction rather than then pschyical but that's something i experienced hope you do well and get through it ok!

[Cranberry]

@OX-gal Holy crap, this is always my biggest fear. Please keep posting if anything develops. Admit to nothing!!!

I had to quit my pills cold turkey (opiates) as the cops showed up at my door with my package that UPS called in as suspicious! I was waiting on the delivery man so imagine my shock when I opened the door to two narc cops! I had ordered from a mexican pharma but the package was mailed from san diego. I had recd 4 other packages well wrapped before that horrible day. The cops interviewed me for a minute, read me my rights, and more or less told me they were gonna investigate and be back..that was a week ago and I am scared everytime there is a knock on the door. I also hate UPS for playing COP. Why dont people just mind their own business! I wasnt hanging on some street corner trying to buy it and I wasnt hurting anyone but myself. UPS sucks. Heads up anyone using that for their mail Im in Florida where you would think the cops would have bigger and better people to bust. This place used to be full of pill mills afterall. Im venting so excuse my rant but im still hurting. Boo Hoo

Get legal advice right away.

[naughtysmurf]

Wow @OX-gal...scary stuff!

[Perromaldido]

I bet SY/SD earned a lot of reputation among US Narcs. I think UPS, FEDEX and all the others randomly pick someone's order just to show they comply. It's not their interest to lose a market share that may be a lot bigger than I'd think. I hope it was a small order and that you get away with it with just a bad memory.

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[Swizzlestick]

I had to quit my pills cold turkey (opiates) as the cops showed up at my door with my package that UPS called in as suspicious! I was waiting on the delivery man so imagine my shock when I opened the door to two narc cops! I had ordered from a mexican pharma but the package was mailed from san diego. I had recd 4 other packages well wrapped before that horrible day. The cops interviewed me for a minute, read me my rights, and more or less told me they were gonna investigate and be back..that was a week ago and I am scared everytime there is a knock on the door. I also hate UPS for playing COP. Why dont people just mind their own business! I wasnt hanging on some street corner trying to buy it and I wasnt hurting anyone but myself. UPS sucks. Heads up anyone using that for their mail Im in Florida where you would think the cops would have bigger and better people to bust. This place used to be full of pill mills afterall. Im venting so excuse my rant but im still hurting. Boo Hoo

So, you mentioned they "read you your rights". Officially, that process should happen BEFORE you are questioned.

So, were you arrested? If yes, what was the charge? Did they search your house?

Are you sure they were really policemen? Or perhaps just a UPS driver and a couple of his friends working together to make off with your drugs?

Please keep us updated.

[sambob]

Started out the day in pain, sniffles, aches all over, body tingles, took my prescribed meds and also some Kratom, which definitely helped, but i know i can't rely on Kratom all the time, right now I have the worst god damn headache I've had in a while. Been thinking about booze lately, which I know I can't go there. All in all I'm doing ok except for the ****in headache....

[alumni]

So, you mentioned they "read you your rights". Officially, that process should happen BEFORE you are questioned.

So, were you arrested? If yes, what was the charge? Did they search your house?

Are you sure they were really policemen? Or perhaps just a UPS driver and a couple of his friends working together to make off with your drugs?

Please keep us updated.

That story has a few holes in it.
In my experience, you only get Miranda rights read after arrest.
If you are arrested, you are typically held briefly and then possibly released pending arraignment and formal charges filed.
I've never heard of an arrest followed by "we're going to investigate and get back to you."
She was either arrested or not. Police have no reason to "read you your rights" prior to an arrest. And it makes no sense to make an arrest, leave the person at home and then go investigate.
I'm not surprised about someone being caught receiving drugs via UPS from Mexican dealers but maybe this poster is just confused about the chain of events that followed.

[Swizzlestick]

In my experience, you only get Miranda rights read after arrest.

On the money! I have never had my rights read to me until AFTER I was officially arrested and in handcuffs.

Seems like back in the old DB.com days, we had someone show up and tell a story just like this. It was related to "tele-medicine" shops, but pretty much exact same story.

I sure hope original poster comes back and keeps us in the loop.