I have finally reached a place in my life where I am--I know its just a feeling--out of all
options. I lost my job. They are contesting my unemployment. I am flat ass broke. My brother was kind enough to let me move in but its not a great situation as he has three kids under the age of 9 and hes barely scraping by. I have tried to get back into school to
finish up my court reporting certification but that's years ago and I can't find any school where I can get enough money to go back. It seems like I hear about programs all the time which allow women to go back to school full-time but I can't seem to find anything or any college that will help. I hear a lot about if my credit was better I could student loan myself to death but based on a poor credit history there isn't anything for me. I am so. And tired of hurting. I know a lot of you understand that. But I just feel like
I have lost all hope. I can't keep hanging on as everywhere I look I only see a deadend. I can't keep being a burden. I am no help to my adult children--adult only in age 18, 19
and 23. Two are fighting hard to stay in college since I can't meet the tuition bills for
them. Again another time I hear so much about funds for kids like mine and those really don't seem to exist either.
Hope. I need hope. This isn't a chemical imbalance this is my life sucks and I need to.somehow find a lifeline. I didn't realize that I wouldn't qualify for any kind of cash assistance--another myth busted about ppl who live on welfare and foodstamps. You only get cash assistance in my state if you have pregnant person in your house but a 46 yrar old woman can't seem to buy any help. I never thought I would be here. I am the static about a payday away from being homeless. My daughter who is very ill I have told to try and talk about Medicaid even though there isn't a specialist in our state who will see any Medicaid patients. Add to another helpless feeling. I gotta buy some hope--how can I get someone to see that?
Too over-qualified I keep getting told at all
I have applied at every place possible in the area I am located. Even though I aanother helpm willing to work patients.