I just wanted to introduce myself, I'm 31, I'm in Australia, and I've had bone grinding pain for half my life.
I just spent the last few hours looking at different ways to buy drugs online nd was very skeptical, and came across this site.
I have a worn disc in my neck, and for some reason they can't work out, my shoulder blade grinds against my back ribs, and it's like having a broken bone that never heals.
I was on the methadone program about five years ago, for about six years, and morphine before that, (illegally), I spent a few years just drinking, or not taking much else, and now I'm getting prescribed panadiene forte, or codiene pills.
Nothing has ever taken the pain away, but some things help more than others, but my doctor won't prescribe me anything good.
I've been to dozens of doctors over the years, and what I've learned is that because I was on the methadone program, I'm on a list which means they're not even allowed to prescribe me anything except codiene or methaone, no matter how much I need it, without special permission from the health department.
I feel like I'm being punished by not being allowed to take pain killers because I took serious pain killers because I was in serious pain, which seems more than a little wrong.
This may sound like I'm insane, but I'm not, it's just the pain is driving me crazy.
I have thoughts of killing people, robbing, stealing, etc, although I've never been a criminal before. I need to get something, but I don't know where to get heroin or anything on the street. I'm losing my mind from the pain. The best I can do is drink, suck nitrous bulbs, and take lots of codiene, but it's not enough.
I could complain forever, it makes me very angry. Anyone got any advice?