We talk (I talk) a lot on this forum about things other than prescriptions. I decided to create a space for people who are in some type of treatment to share about that part of their lives - a dedicated thread to this topic. I know some of you are in therapy, twelve-step programs - I know some of you have gone through treatment programs, detox, or DBT. I know some of you have spouses and partners who struggle with addition and destruction. If you want to talk about your present or your past as it relates to these topics feel free.
I have been in some kind of therapy for over half of my life. I am currently in analysis with a therapist that I have been seeing since my last inpatient treatment back in 2001. I find the whole process to be very painful emotionally - I sometimes wonder why I continue down this path. I wonder when I'll be done. I wonder if I am addicted to my weekly meeting. Then I wonder if that is a bad thing.
My session yesterday was really difficult. We spoke about my issues around dependency (on people), my trouble with real emotional intimacy, and my difficult childhood. I tend to roll around inside myself when things get too tough - the feeling lasts for days. I am struggling with that right now. I am trying to distract myself with my kids, my plans for this weekend, this forum.
My new friend @jcorsig () started a great thread last night about personal histories. It actually broke my heart but I appreciated it. Thank you for sharing yourself with - us. I plan on heading over there and contributing in a bit. It's never good to be alone.